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i 've been trying hard to hide my feelings so tat none of u will be worried..but.. i dun think i can talk anywhere else except here ba.. ya.. i m feeling veri tong ku now.. but wat can i do?? time may heal my wounds.. but how long will it takes to heal it?? i dun wish to think.. i dun wish tat everything had happened.. but can i? i knew it's me who started all these.. but.. haiz.. i noe i cant turn back the time.. but.. i wish.. i hope.. if onli.. but.. it's impossible le.. i asked for miracles.. but it had already been decided.. really there is no chance? i wish to noe.. when did all this cheng wei ding ju.. y?? if eveything did not start.. will i be as happy? will we be still frens who can tell our troubles n woes to...if u were to tell me tat if all these had never start den we can be like b4.. n cos all these have happened n we cant,, we will be juz like frens who will onli say a hi or a bye,, den i supposed i will say i will regret..can i say i wanted to fang but i m afraid i cant..??i noe it's within my ability to.. but.. how?? will it affect my Os? this one i dun think so ba.. but.. i dunno.. things r hard to say ba.. juz like one day we can be happily together n the next day,, we juz broke off...i know wat makes u initiate it.. but... really no other way out?

i m confused.. i m disappointed.. i had always yearn for an ans but i dun dare to receive it.. i had the feeling early in the morning.. but didn't noe tat it will really come true..i dun wan! can i?! i noe not.. but is there really no chance?? when i ask u abt the miracles... y? y izzit tat u dun wan to reconsider?? i think i noe y but... i'm sorry.. i dunno wat to do..i m at a loss.. i fear of tml.. can i face it?? i dunno.. i have absolutely no idea... will there be another chance?? will u give this a third chance?? will u? can we end this after the Os?? can we??

i hope for a yes..will i get it?? can u give it to me??