Qi!ing

2009-02-13T22:35:00.002+08:00

it has been so so long since i last updated.. uni life had been ok so far.. just hope to pull up my stupid cap!

did a few facebook quizzes so here i am gg to post the results so tat this wun be dead.. =(

what my birthday says about me:

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

wat my name means:

i have an aggressive name! -_-"

Your name reflect a strong personality and you are always up for troubles! chill out man!!

who is my soulmate?? 0_O

Your future lover should be someone with talent. Someone who can juggle your busy schedule and make it work. You guys have something extremely important in your life in common.

last but not least, wat kind of person i will fall in love with?? @_x

Let's not lie. You're not exactly..the...um perfect person. Lucky for you, you got to marry above yourself. Your spouse if going to be the hotty of the century.

2008-10-07T17:28:00.002+08:00

Boo! i got a lousy MAS801 result!=(( haiyo! 63 marks sia.. sian diao!! hopefully the other mid term results will be fine.. :(

school has been rather busy due to the mid terms n all.. WHO SAYS UNI IS BETTER THAN JC??????
=(

i have a big big really big blue-black on my knee! and thus, my knee starting to ache again.. sad sad sad...

2008-08-24T00:37:00.001+08:00

TMD! Cant everyone just let me study in peace?

I am FUCKING-LY pissed!

2008-08-09T03:11:00.002+08:00

First week of school as alr come to an end!=)

Sorry to have troubled people (jean n shi hui esp) about school!

Sad to say, though i major in math, out of the 5 lectures that i attended this week, i only understood 1 pathetic lecture! And an even sadder thing is that that particular lecture is an econs module! not math!! For the first time, i realise math ain't that easy after all! =( The only thing that i have picked up from the lecture is to calculate out the last letter of the NRIC number given the IC number and the ISBN number of books! THAT'S ALL! =( Hopefully i can pick up more subsequently.......

Tutorials is going to start next week! Hopefully i will get to know more ppl.. =)

And and and...
A BROWN CAT TOOK THE LIFT UP TO MY HOUSE YESTERDAY!!
32nd floor! took the lift! can u believe it?? LOL!!
This poor little cat ran out of the lift as the lift door once it opens and scare the wits out of my bro's gf (luckily it's not me)!! haha.. hopefully this will never happen again..... clever little cat took the stairs down though it almost jumped off the building from the 30th storey! May that bastard (cos i dun believe a cat will be so daring enuff to go inside the lift) who carried the cat into the lift repent and never do it again!

NTU is an island on it's own!

2008-07-17T16:43:00.002+08:00

I'm finally going to NTU to read math! hopefully not to be a math teacher next time though! ha.. not that i dun like to be teacher but through tuition, i m afraid to teach! ha..

Hoping to change course to math n econs though.. hope to score in econs module so that they will allow me to change course..=) -i m gg to be a mugger again!-

I m now very burnt.. ha.. my back hurts! went sentosa twice this week.. imagine the sun at noon time! *faints..

and i finally found my long-lost friend on friendster.. haha.. primary one fren which is like 13 years ago? cool!=)

*till now then i realise, birthday cakes cost a bomb! maybe i can open a bakery shop next time!=))

2008-05-25T23:38:00.002+08:00

Alrightt.. Had been long since i last updated..

I went to zoo recently with my primary school frens.. A fun experience looking at how the ah mengs fight!=) The fun part of the whole outing is out we laugh at every single thing and how we behave like little kids whenever we meet. We used to be like any other little kids, saying the "wowwwww".. But now, we will comment in a diff way, that is, "Eeeeeeeee".. Ha interestingg.. Ever seen how the fang-less/toothless king cobra gobble down a little dead rat? Ha.. For the first time in my many visits to the zoo, i see that.. Hope to meet up often with them...

I am blessed with several group of frens.. primary, secondary, vb, jc etc... Lucky to have my very good bunch of frens but unlucky in my first attempt of choice of courses.. haiz.. hopefully my appeal will be successful...

Yes i got NUS real estate which disappoints me at first cos i was rather confident of getting science or at least FASS.. But no! with a grade of a b b c but a bloody, fucking E for GP caused me my coursessss.. disappointed to hear my frens of a lower grade such as B C D or B C C getting fass but i m not.. haiz... But this is not the biggest disappointment...!!! Yes, i got nth from NTU except a rejection letter? haiz.. tio rejected with my set of results u know? How i wished my results weren't a b b c so that i wun be so disappointed..

Appealed for math n econs from NTU. Hopefully the school will give me the course.. Haiz.. if not i shall just settle down with real estate.. Not that i dun like that course but i am just too bu gan yuan to accept it.. haizzzzz.... all the medical check-ups is a chore sia! Pray hard for me ppl!! hope i can get NTU..=(

2008-04-13T01:03:00.002+08:00

I am currently working at ocbc now! lots of things to learn sia.. hope i wun key in the wrg amt of money....
working at raffles place is just so not me.. hmmm.. wei le $$ i got no choice but to work! sian big times......

uni admission to ???

it's nice meeting up with ming fern n nora.. to think that we can chat all the way up to 12+ am at marina square starbucks! ha.. we ended at 12+ cos the security chased us out??? hmmm.. cool meeting up with not only old but close frens... studying at the airport with ming fern n nora next sat.. ha study??? it's has been long since i use that word.. the reason of gg out to study with them is just to ka jiao them ba.. =)

i lead a boring life........................................................

2008-03-12T23:45:00.003+08:00

This blog is as good as dead since i am so damn lazy.. ha.. gotten back my A level results already.. hmmm.. glad and satisfied but they are still not good enough for my ideal course..

math- A [prelims D]
chem- B [prelims E]
econs- B [always U]
physics- C [prelims D]
gp- E (which is a c6) [at all times except for promos U]
pw- band 3
chinese- B4

with my gp n pw grades to be so, hope it will not affect me too much..

my choices of course are more or less decided thanx to the advices given by ms yeow n her husband.. hmmm..

Accountancy will still be my choice but i know i will have great difficulty getting it..
Math n Economics / Economics will be my second choice for ntu though i still haven really decide on which to be the my 2nd n which to be my 3rd choice.

biz for nus as 2nd choice ba...

may i get wat i want for the top 3 choices,

umemployed unemployed.. actively looking for one but haven found it yet.. who knows? i may get it tml? haha..

to think i may have to study econs again (provided i get it)..
hmmm.. should i? or not?

2008-01-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

Started work.
Cisco.
Fixed Lines.
$6.50/hr.
Bored.

2008-01-09T12:07:00.000+08:00

What Wong Qi Ling Means

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!
You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-01-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

my very first entry of 2008 shall be dedicated to dear eileen anf gidman!=)
I LUV EILEEN TAN HIN BOON and GIDMAN WEE POH CHUAN(dunno right or not ah)!
a big thank you for today!=)

gonna give tuition on wedesday.. boring.........................
gonna work.. sian........................

-_-"

2007-12-28T22:07:00.000+08:00

Had been long since i last blogged. boring life + i'm just too lazy to blog! -_-" eat sleep play is all i do everyday sia. Caught Alvin and the chipmunks yesterday! Cool! i love chipmunks!=) they are just so cute. after which both me n eileen went to shuang lin xi to pray! interesting interesting =)

i'm waiting for citibank's reply to see if i will continue to be unemployed and contribute to Singapore's unemployment rate which is seen as one of the main macroeconomic problem. HAHAHA. i actually do miss the times when i mug like crazy.

life is boring.............

2007-12-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

for the sake of eileen, i am here to update :)

it has been long since the last day of my As. How was As? HAHAHA! no comments.. hope everything will be fine in the end.. Miracles miracles miracles............

Life after As is good but quite boring as well.. Somehow, i miss the boring routine tat i used to lead for the past 4-6 months. ha! all i do now is to eat, sleep, watch vcd and play volleyball! BUT,,, my stupid right arm bu zheng qi! i cant spike at all cos i cant exert force! went to see uncle ho and now i must rest for a week without much use of my right arm.. Boo! this week will definitely be a boring week for me. DEFINITELY!

will be going over to my bro's house on mon =)
watching movie with ah maine on either mon/tues =)
ice-cream treat from my aunt on sat =)

please date me on the other days! =) =) =)

looking for job now so that i will have money to spend! hope citibank have vacancies! might be giving tuition to a pri 6 kid. die die die.. though it's math but i heard pri sch math is diffcult! may god bless me.....

hope my As will be fine.hope my hand will be fine soon.

Miss E.Tan says that she will forsake me for her boyfriend! one fine day if i am bored to death, you will know why. Bleahx!

2007-10-06T04:09:00.000+08:00

all the little details are embedded (rite spelling?) in my small little brain..
no wonder there isnt much space left for my notes..=(

2007-09-30T14:47:00.000+08:00

it has been long since i last blog.. hmmm.. prelims sucks! i need a life man..

failing econs like nobody's business! spent so much time on it to get a F grade sia! waste my time.. might as well spent more time on the others to get a better grade! boo~! ( just joking cos i wun give up=))

so i got a D for math n physics.. ( why my stats so cmi?)
a E for GP and chem ( why my compre suck? why my chem grade nv exceed a E b4 and it always stay at a E?)

boring boring!

I DUN WANT TO STUDY!!!

As on 29th oct.
haha
dead
about a month to it
no time no time
dunno how to study la
but cant
sucks
dun wan dun feel like but have to
2 more mths and i m free
but maybe 5 more mths den i m dead?
bored

2007-07-15T00:43:00.000+08:00

gotten back my result alr.. one big load of rubbish! failed MATH! irritating....
Physics: D (my only a-level pass)
Math: O (my most disappointed subject)
Econs: F (sian to the max!)
Chem: O (my mcq sucks)
GP: O (good luck to me)

got a huge gap for me to close up.. hope everything will be fine for As.. i got to be more hardworking and stop slacking!

we will only treasure things/people after losing them.. my god mother died.. unfilial me.. i din visit her ever since i move to hougang.. last visit her when i was in secondary school.. maybe around sec 1 or 2? that was when i was 13 or 14.. now that i m 19, she's gone.. i have a god father, a god mother, 3 god brothers, 1 god sister and i have my god nephews n nieces but i din noe of their existence, except for 1, until when my god mother was hospitalised.. hmmm.. if only i do not have the mindset that going alone to visit them i will have nth to say den will be very weird etc...now i no longer have the chance to visit her... my god bros n sis are like stranger to me.. sad... if only i all i can say now..

what a year it had been for me from last april till now.. things cant be forgotten easily.. especially if u had put your heart n soul in it..

i cant be bother with wat u think i m suppose to do? i dun think i have the power n strength to really do what u think i did.. wake up! probs dun always lie in others.. dun say that u know it's your fault n that u will change if u dun man wat u say..whatever it is, life still goes on.. dun expect things to be done when you dun wan to do anything..that applies to everything in life i guess...

treasure what you have now ba.. once it's gone, it will be gone forever.. friends, relationship, kinship.. it applies to all..

2007-05-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

it had been long since i last blogged.. tiring period of time.. my life revolves around volleyball and studies only but i am still lagging behind in studies... Stats really sucks.. 'catch no ball' is the phrase to describe my feel towards stats.. the only subject that i used to confidently pass, now seems to be like a challenge to me as well..

volleyball.. got in top 8.. in the second round, lost to hci today and vjc on last wed.. last match tat i am gg to play for mjc will be on wed.. against ijc,, I WANT TO WIN! hmmm....

TIRED! BORED! SIAN-ED!

i miss my frens.....
i need a life.....
a year gone.....
i can do it......
i am NOT stupid!=)

back to my tuts..
see wat i mean by no life?=(

2007-03-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

Finally!!!! block test is over! this is the worst exam i have ever taken.. the most unprepared exam.. one week for 4 subjects.. haiz...

gp: dead
econs: dead
physics: pray for a S grade
math: haiz......... 40 marks gone alr! hope for a D?
chem: haiz.. hope for a S ba.. sian.......

i miss those dayssssssss...................

2007-02-20T21:41:00.000+08:00

It has been a very long time since my last post.. It has been a very busy year.. tests after tests.. tutorials after tutorials.. TIRING SIA!! hope my year will be good..

i've been so anti-social lately.. seldom go out.. all i do is sleep and sleep and sleep whenever i can..-_-"

staying at home is worse than staying in prison sia.. boring..... what a way to start a new year..=(

2007-01-01T00:55:00.000+08:00

A BRAND NEW YEAR!

alright.. sweet, bitter, sour, good and bad memories.... now is a brand new yr with the As right ahead.. haha.. i can do it la hor..-_-"

long island sucks!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALL!

2006-12-19T15:27:00.000+08:00

had a long long sleep.. slept from 5 pm yest till 9am today.. wat a pig i am! but yea.. that's me!=)

last trg for the year was held yesterday.. 2 weeks with no vb.. will be quite bored but at least i will be freed from things that i dun like..

boring boringgggggggggggg~!

2006-12-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

limited time left now for me to complete my mountain of homework.. =( sian sian sian....

my holidays is almost over and all i did is volleyball, eat and sleep! what a waste of my hols..-_-"
planning to leave my last week of dec to play but will my mountain high of tutorials and revision allow me to do so? gonna go sentosa, attend class bbq and gathering with my xms teammates.. looking forward to the very last week of my hols and also, at the same time dread the arrival of my jc2 life......

people see my class as a very united and bonded one.. i used to think so too.. but! haiz... hope next year everyone will grow up..lesi gonna go aust le.. i will be so damn bored in class.... BOO~!! pray that my jc2 life wun be a boring one and most importantly, will be a smooth one.. my mugging days gonna start soon.....

below are my complain/complaints? i dunno the spelling.. so ya.. u can skip this post.............i just need a place to voice out my thoughts

tml will be my very last vb trg of the year.. been trg in mj since 2004 nov.. played with 3 diff teams and the feeling just get worse.. is it safe to mention it here? arghhh watever! first yr (2004 nov-2005 may) i have a proper coach, mr wong.. so nth much esp because the team were j2s and there are experieced players in the team.. therefore, during trg, everyone was serious.. jokes aside but when doing the drills, everyone was serious.. then come the second year(2005 june-2006 may) i train with a team that is willing to learn.. for each drill, they do it for the sake of learning and picking up the skills.. it might not be exactly true but at least that's how i feel.. though discipline slacken after the 2nd intake this yr, at least things still manage to go on.. however, come this yr, i really really find no reason for me to go for trg.. acting is the team's forte i guess..yea maybe it's my problem.. for being too serious? that's the only disadvantage i can think of for being used to a discipline team..or maybe a resonsible team.. things get really sickening when ms yeow isn't around.. i told myself not to be serious tat day.. i really did.. but it gets really unbearable! i dun see why we should do a drill for the sake of doing it and have such low expectation for a good ball.. i mean just because you want to finsh the drill fast doesnt mean there shouldnt be any self expectation.. or maybe, that's your expectation for urself ba.. also, i dun see why one can just walk out of the court because you got hit by th ball.. yes it hurts but is it the right attitude? or i should say, why din u walk out of court or has low expectation for every ball when the higher authority is around? for goodness sake, if u want to be on court please respect the sport and do ur best ya? its alright to make mistakes and u are aware of it but it is DEFIINITELY incorrect to either be unaware of the disgusting attitude or to know it but not change it.. yes, the feeling of quitting vb is coming back to me again..coming back strong.. i remembered my coach telling us that we will certainly be disappointed and upset with the team we play in a JC cos the attitude towards trg is diff..now i understand why he said so.. i can easily ask myself to be less serious and less committed but i guess by doing so, it will just make me feel that going for trg is a waste of time.. why cant i possess the same attitude as the others when it comes to trg? the feeling sux! i guess the problem really lies with me and i dun think it will make any sense if i were to talk to ms yeow ba.. it will only make her feel tat it's her fault and do reflection..if i am unable to change my mindset, no one can help me ba unless they become serious? fat hope..! some say that i should tell when i think and some say i shouldnt.. it looks like backstabbing but at the same time it looks like just updating the facts to the one that should know bout the situation.. oh well.. see wat happens tml ba..

gonna sleep and be prepared to go for another boring session esp when i am a handicapped.. no self entertainment for myself.. wat worse situation can i still fall in? dunno wat i am talking anymore.. byee..

2006-12-12T19:16:00.000+08:00

had been spending my mornings for vb, afternoon sleeping and night sleeping? haha.. i'm still alive la ppl..=)

my boring life will resume soon (though it's already quite bored now).. sian.. i still have tons of work to do! math, chem, econs.. and i still need to complete revision for they year if not come next year i will surely die flat! -_-"

my last week of dec to be spend playing BUT that means i have to finish work soon.. SIAN can! arghhhhh...

boring boring!~

2006-11-26T19:47:00.000+08:00

worked for the first time in my life but it's just to help my fren.. only $3 PER HOUR CAN? haha.. boring boring..

injured my leg and cant play vb for at least 2 weeks.. how am i going to survive? gonna have friendly on tues for K.A and on fri for mj.. both i oso cant play.. it will be so boring.. haiz... dunno wat actually happened to my stupid leg.. so idiotic.. arghhhhhh.....................

gonna give up a job that fetch $9 per hour cos of the camp! sad sad....

date me someone!

boring~~!

2006-11-20T20:19:00.000+08:00

bored to stay at home..

someone PLEASE DATE ME!

having fever + sore throat..
ms eileen tan: pray that i will be fine tml.. hahaha..

2006-11-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

it's tough to retain in year 1.. the feeling sux.. but i guess it's tougher to proceed to year 2 ba..

maybe i am just too mature for them..

it's tough to forget..
arghhhhhhhhhhhh...

boring~!

2006-11-03T00:26:00.000+08:00

got back my overall result le..
Maths: B
GP:C
Econs: E
Physics: E
Chemistry: E

quite satisfied la.. at least my hard work did pay off this time round.. alright alright..

met irresponsible people and this is so ever irritating.. but that was not the ultimate.. sometimes i may be lame but i have very low tolerance for her irritating-ness! just cant stand it.. ahhh.. shouldnt elaborate just in case but i am just so damn bloody pissed off..

i've been so so so so bored nowadays.. really bored.. got to wait till the J2s finish their As before i can find some company.. holidays assignment and e-lessons are waiting for me but i just dun feel like doing.. but maybe i should actually use their As period to finish my work so tat i can slack all th way till next yr.. hmmm.. maybe......-_-"

though my days are spent on just training and sleeping, i did went out with my classmates.. and guess wat? went seoul garden today n saw samuel and after that went to watch the grudge 2.. the show is scary but funny as well with all the primary kids, i think, trying to imitate the voices etc.. also, my classmates! 1 not at all affected by the show, 2 that scream their lungs out, 1 tat slept for awhile i think and 1 tat not only screamed but cry? hahaha!

alright time for me to sleep again..]
good luck to all taking As..
good luck to yx too!
All the best!

2006-10-18T20:37:00.000+08:00

finally got back all my results..

=)

i've got a C for physics!!! throughout the 2 years, this is the very first time i am passing my physics.. be it tests or exams.. haha.. so my overall promos grade is as follow..

Math: A
GP: B
Physics: C
Chemistry: E
Econs: S

finally i see light..............

sick again.. ahhhhh.. sian..

2006-10-16T20:22:00.000+08:00

happy day..
tml?

got back my results le.. only for GP and math..
GP: 61.5 B
math: 71 A

econs?
chem?

update tml.....=))

2006-10-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

dunno what happen to my com.. irritating.. monday is the day.. the day that i will start to get back my results.. boo~!

my house has a member less but my family has a member more! hahaha.. my eldest bro got married..=)
severe muscle ache! pain.. slept the whole day! 11 to 12, 1.30 to 7.. i think i am mad.. -_-"

why must people change?

2006-10-03T20:42:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness! i am just so dead you know? econs: why firms dun shut down immediately after making huge losses? 10 marks! write wat shit? gp: i did an essay on Cars bring more problems than benefits. agree? damn it.. this is the easiest topic? and i did it cos i mugged on econs , traffic congestion, the day before..

anyone wanna save me?

promos.. haiz..

2 down 3 to go..

i wan to eat snowskn mooncake!!! with egg de!!

2006-09-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

written thoughts on a piece of paper.. torn... thrown.. hope my stress, worries etc will be thrown away as well..

my new favourite song!

Valentine
If there were no words
No way to speak I will still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside I will still feel you
And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance run out of rhyme
You will still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need My love My valentine

All of my life I have been waiting for all you gave to me
Open my eyes and show me how to love unselfishly
I've dreamt of this a thousand times before
In my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart until the end of time
You're all I need My love My valentine

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance run out of rhyme
You will still have my heart until the end of time
'Cause all I need is you my valentine
You're all I need My Love My Valentine

2006-09-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

i was sad.. yes WAS.. i din noe it was like tat.. but since u say it that way, u have ur reasons and i shall respect them.. too angry to be sad.. was everything fake in the past? damn it..

promos promos..

2006-09-14T19:27:00.000+08:00

finally, i know the reason..
something that i am always trying to find out..
i agree to the reason to only a certain extent?
but i know and i guess it's really the time to forget..
things are complicated, confusing and irritating..
i promise and swear to myself tat i will nv ever drop another tear for u after today..
not anymore...

things are getting more and more complicated..
everything..
feeling uncomfortable but not going to voice out?
is it the formation of a 3rd one?

i am going to lame now..
too much chemistry..
i will increase my concentration for promos--reactants (though the concentration is already quite high)
so,
by Le Chatelier's principle, the equilibrium will shift right to decrease the concentration.
The new equilibrium mixture will contain more products--results and less reactants (it's alright cos as mentioned, it's already quite high) =)

ok enough of my rubbish..
time to study..
i shall be a lesbian..
anyone?

0_x"

2006-09-09T19:33:00.000+08:00

a boring me in a boring life of mine.. study and study and study.. SIAN!! haiz.. many changes took place since april till now.. big changes small changes.. but i guess the biggest change for me happened last year in august n in october.. if only.. if only i can avoid it, if only i can do this and that..

it's less than a month to my promotional exam (again).. how would i fare this time round? i have been studying.. in fact i have been studying since i started studying for my mid years.. BUT.. i have the 'i dunno anything', 'i dun seem to noe what i have been doing', 'i dont think i have started' etc...... freak my life la..

have been rather bad/short-tempered.. due to? stress? haiz...... can i jump? irritating.. now.. it's either a 3 years journey for me to the u or a 5 year journey............

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

ok i dunno what else to say.. or maybe.. I DUN LIKE MY LIFE! o_o"

2006-08-21T21:25:00.000+08:00

SICK!! haiyo.. dunno what happen to me.. headache for the past few days and now? i got diarrhoea too! 9+ suddenly have and i therefore, cant concentrate during chem lect and missed econs lect to go behind the lt and sleep! sian.. after school took the econs test but did a wrong paper so i did 2 econs test! great practice huh? hmmm..

friday was the interhouse.. i had my very very very first punch in my whole entire life while playing netball..my poor left eye.. it's always the left! maybe that's why i love the song zuo bian and....... hmmm... when i was young, while playing on the double decker bed with my brothers, i fell! my left eyes had a BIG BIG blue-black and i have photo of me as an evidence.. =(

so now i am thinking whether i should go sch tml.. should i? there is triple lect tml and the one that i care most is chem lect.. they sian that ionic equilibria is damn difficult.. hmmm.. but if i go sch, it will mean that i need to study for my physics test.. i am very very dead now.. how how? arghhhhhhhhhh

i think that i am very bad-tempered recently.. pms? stress? arghhhhhhhhhh.. i am very very easily pissed off recently.. very.. so pardon me if i te zui any one of u out there ya?

hmmm.. i knew it would happen..
it's only a matter of time..
now?
we will drift i noe..
that's for sure..
juz hope we wun be too far apart ya?
haiz......
i made it happen...

2006-08-13T14:54:00.000+08:00

Fireworks is nice! shoot up into the sky and brighten up people's mood! if only i can see it everyday..

been mugging for almost every single day.. mug and mug but, am i mugging in the right way? will mugging allow me to get promoted.. i tried last yr but i failed.. this yr? hmmm.. i noe i cant give up and i wun give up but.. sometimes i cant help but question myself on my decision.. Is what i am experiencing now called stress? hmmm.. promos is coming.. arghhhh!!!!! yuan ben zi sheng ban nian que yin wei mo xie ying su er bian cheng yi nian ban... hao sian..

i miss you you and you! haiz.. the 3 different you(s)...

one of the you: i told u almost everytime i am sad.. that i miss you.. and i really miss you a lot can? the times we spend together.. haiz.. the one that i can share my burden worries troubles boredom with.. =(

some frens enter my life and leave but some dun and even if they walk off, they will still remain in my heart ba.. may be good or bad but i dun think i have the control over it..

life for me really sucks.. especially now..

2006-08-05T19:25:00.000+08:00

Long time since i blogged..

went to the xinmin thingy on thurs night. we should have went to watch movie instead.. -_-" BUT.. without this boring drama, we might have to wait till the next holiday before we meet up.. So ya.. at least we manage to meet and crap.. =)

i miss the past..
every aspects of it..

2006-07-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

Had been moody for the past few weeks for no reason.. classmates and frens asked me about it but i really really dunno what's the reason.. hope i will be alright soon!

went to popular with ms tan today! i bought econs n physics text.. hope it will be useful and not a waste of my $$..

got my results.. Chemistry:41% S
Physics:31% F
Econs: 36% F
Math :56% C
GP: 46% E
happy with my results though i have 2 Fs.. nvm.. pray for me that i will be promoted this yr..=)

2006-07-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

An ending to the story finally..
struggled for 3 months.. 3 months of changes.. was the past fake?
decision to maintain wasnt successful.. maybe that's just me.. all bout me..
friendships are juz so fragile..
big girls dun cry.. they fall and pick themselves up again.. let this be the last time ba..
to ask to be juz good frens.. it is still too difficult a request.. so be it..
a new term and a new beggining but no more new r/s till i really find someone who can tolerate me ba..
feelings dun last.. hope i wun fall for someone whom i think is the one but end up got to adapt to new changes..

maybe i am juz too sensitive too curious to everything.. i know the answer but i will still ask to confirm.. maybe this is what we call stupid..this is wat causes everything.. too naive maybe? thinking that i am able to maintain the pure friendship..

i will be able to keep the promise to myself..
be a lesbian! =) eileen want?
hahaha.........

2006-06-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

ok! my paper ended on wed.. finally.. spending one whole month on it..so far only physics and maybe econs confirm F ba.. hope everything will be alright..=)

went out with my class on wed thurs n fri! happening sia!! thurs purposely meet in sch at 8 to play basketball, volleyball, soccer and tennis.. hahaz..

ok.. many thoughts in my mind for these few days...
1. i miss eileen! and i dunno why.. suddenly thought of not seeing her in sch nowadays, not gg to see her arnd next yr.. who am i going to look for when i am down? haiz.. if only i din retain? all the stupid thoughts of no one to turn to fill my mind last night.. i know that i wun and cant find anyone to replace her ba.. i really really hope our friendship will stay forever..
2. i miss the old old times.. something that i am now still confused?troubled?sad?disappointed?regret?guilty? whatever.. haiz.. if only i can turn back the times.. i wanted to ask what exactly happened.. was it me or other factors? but.. haiz.. i guess i will nv noe the real real reason.. but i guess whatever it i'm at fault ba..
3. my results? am i really suited for a jc? haiz.. wait till i get back my mid years ba..

i miss eileen!
know i miss you..
if only i can turn back the time............
i'm a lagger.. cos i've nv been so upset till recently...

2006-06-19T20:16:00.000+08:00

As usual, i have this feeling that the things that i had studied for the past 3 weeks have gone to waste.. This time round i need to study 4 subjects.. i am actually left with only econs and chemical bonding (which sucks) but the feeling of everything-also-dunno is still present.. Hope i wont screw this mid-year.. Had a grade of O O F last yr for mid-years.. This time round??

STRESS!! =(

Suddenly, everything is coming back to my mind.. What's that feeling? i really dont understand..Great memories, fond memories of which i refuse to forget.. yes.. it's just memories...........

1 week to my first paper: Chemistry.. 25% of the paper is on chem bonding i think.. and i dont understand this chapter at all!!

Freak my life! @_@

2006-05-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

went shopping today!! and it all begins with........

i went airport juz to eat ban mian! then go shopping..=( it all begins with the initial intention to study but ended up at orchard? hahaz.. ok so walk and walk and walk but i bought NOTHING!!=( sian!!!!

The most fun part of today:
i had a competition with alvin.. to see who can eat the most.. the loser will have to treat the winner starbucks.. and if i win ryan treat xinyi and vice versa if alvin wins.. i ate:
1. a box of prawn tako pachi
2. a chocolate pancake
3. 3 siew mai
4. 3 har kow
5. 1 $2 popiah (so disgusting cos it's so green)
6. black pepper sausage wrapped in prata
7. 1 unagi sushi
8. 2 crab meat sushi

and in the end, we decided to announce no winner! hahaz.. i ate all tat at one go can? cant believe it..=)
dunno when i will get my bag.. shall not buy till i really see one that catches my attention.. =)

2006-05-18T20:38:00.000+08:00

yes. i am on the verge of breaking down.
the thought of going to a poly has been ringing in my mind..
the thought of not going to give up is oso ringing.
what should i do?

is it because i din work or mug hard enough?
or is it that i am juz not cut out for jc?
haiz....
stress..
my grades sucks like hell for goodness sake..
GP essay: 34% (ungraded)
Physics's first test: F9
Econs test: 12% and 30%
Maths: 60%
Chem: 22% and 72%

i am juz so screwed..
screwed up my Chem SPA Assessment today.
everything spoilt.. cant see the concentration till the last 3 mins..
was it really gui zhe yan?
haiz....
it's A's and i flunk!

life really sucks..
had a talk with cass and tears were on the verge of falling..
juz feel so damn stressed up!!!!
i need a break.
i am breaking down..

2006-04-30T04:21:00.000+08:00

i hope i am not right..
but i am quite sure..
haiz..

long time since i last studied at night..
quite productive!!=)
bought my 6111 le!
but my bro claim that i am stupid!!=(
nvm.. wat matters most is i like..

fate is not within my control..
change is not within my control..
but i guess happiness is within my control...
as long as i want myself to be happy, i will be happy.

2006-04-28T20:27:00.000+08:00

it had been 8 and a half months..
din expect everything to change within such a short time..
rather disapointing but i guess,
this is life..
there's nothing for me to care,
or at least,
none needs my care,,,,

p.s. dun think that this has anything to do with my love life.. cos it has nth to do with it.. yup.. single and available since 2005=)

2006-04-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

dun wish to end everything..
dun wish to keep it dangling there..
dun wish to forget and move on..
dun wish to stop..
dun wish to mean what i say..
dun wish to do what i say..
dun wish to do what i should do..
dun wish to do everything..
life dun allow us to do wat we wish..
so we juz have to carry on with whatever we should..

life had been busy so far.. lost to HCI.. got thrashed.. sad =( but i guess, they are strong.. very strong.. chemistry test sucks! sucks so much.. i'm going to fail.. physics sucks! i'm still, NOT able to do the questions.. sian-ed... AHHHH!!! ok ajc on mon and tpjc on wed.. I WANT AND MUST WIN ONE!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

Got the A Division draw le.. haiz.. AJC HCJC TPJC and MJC.. can we make it? sian...... hope that we can make it somewhere...!!! pray pray...

BAD BAD MOOD FOR ME.. NOTHING GOES RIGHT THESE FEW WEEKSSSSS.. SIAN!!

2006-03-13T22:25:00.000+08:00

sweet, caring, thoughtful, initiative and patient..
tat's all i ask for..
is it too much??

2006-02-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

time makes people drift apart
hope that it will never happen

2006-02-14T19:30:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentines Day!!

need not go to school on monday and tuesday (today) cos of the J1 registration thingy..=)
sleep sleep sleep!!=)
die.. i'm getting heavier and heavier!! my weiging machine says i am 65kg! shit! bu ti think it's spoilt la.. =( buying a new one soon.. die la.. 65 = TAF

sweet valentine to all!

2006-02-07T17:42:00.000+08:00

had been a long long time since i last blogged..
dunno what i should take.. physics or chemistry??
haiz..
physics is tough i cant do it..
chemistry is tough too! how how??
lalalax..
chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi?=(

having pms nowadays..
sian!

2006-01-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

it has been a long time since i last bogged.. was too lazy and tired to.. =X

my birthday:
8th january----- my dear dear classmates gathered at song xia's house for steamboat and they bought a cake for me! though i was afraid of mandy at first, but after that jiu was alright le.. tat cruel cass ong bullied mandy! and she seized this chance to bully ME also!

9th january----- celebrated my birthday out with my frens.. was fun and a happy day for me..=)

10th january---- my beloved teammates from xms gave me a surprise!! they bought a big big tweety bird for me! omg!! the one that i had been eyeing for so long but failed to buy.. i was so very happy!!! thanx a lot!

11th january---- my dear teammates of mj celebrated my birthday with an ice cream cake bought from swensens.. the cake was put in the fridge instead of the freezer cos of insufficient space.. after our training, we each had a spoon in our hand and started eating! and in the end we left this little bit that no one wants to eat and alvin finally volunteered to eat but jeanette started the 'cake fight' thingy and we were running around the canteen! and stupid alvin and ryan bullied me!

so tat was all.. wat a long long birthday i had had.. i am so so fortunate to be blessed with such bunch of good good friends..

so i got my class groupings for the first 3 months yesterday and i was in 06S413.. i was in the same class as cedric and the other girl.. but...... i received a call from a teacher that since i dropped clao i am transferred to class 06S412!! which means,, i will be in the same class as 9 other fellow retainees.. a class of retainees.........=D

that's all..
i miss my class.. especially the two of you

2006-01-01T10:51:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to all!

so today is the 1st jan 2006.. hope this year will be a smooth year.. had a fun but sad year in 2005.. fun to be with the trio pillow gang, to be able to be in the same class with eileen for the 5th year and cass for the 3rd year.. but sadly, got to spilt next year.. hope we will not drift apart ya.. hmmm..

a change of syllabus and i had chosen to take chemistry, econs and math with physics as h1 subject.. hope i din make a wrong choice..

eileen ask me to make a wishlist..

1) happiness
2) happiness

and

3) happiness!

hahaz... box me if u wan!=D

2005-12-26T17:15:00.000+08:00

Was out with eileen on christmas eve in the late afternoon.. went shopping with her and bought a white polo tee! =) we met at toa payoh then went to bishan and then back to toa payoh again! -_-" met dennis but too bad i can't join them at heli's place cos i am a good girl who accompanied my mum!=DD

was out on christmas.. watched Narnia! nice show!! =D

nothing to blog le.. nowadays, i got nothing to say..! maybe cos SHE is NOT my CT le! but there is this one last thing i am going to say about her.. she is a damn idiotic + irresponsible person man.. i doubt she told the school that i had changed my address cos till now i have yet to receive the JC1 freshmen's letter! how responsible she is man.. how can sucha person be a teacher?! haiz.. never mind.. i shall depend on myself and go to the GO to tell the staff myself! bloody hell.. arghhhhhh...

my ankle is so so so so weird.. wonder what's happening man.. it hurts now and then but sometimes it don't hurt when i jump or run! so is my ankle injured or not?! sian...

got to report to school at 7.45 on this coming wednesday.. sian.. wonder if i can adapt to the new environment.. what if my new class has no retainees?? wat if??? then i will be like tat @_@ .. yup! that's all ba.. Happy Boxing Day to everyone!=)

2005-12-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

got my watch though eileen says that i am crazy! hmmm.. had great difficulty finding the watch.. i wanted to give up but thanks to jeanette, jung chao and alvin! and finally i found it in lucky plaza! they altered the watch for me but then i still feel that it is a bit loose so i think i will probably go alter again ba.. happy!!!

nowadays i eat a lot worz! fat fat!! really fat! haiz.. never mind.. can't be helped..

sweet sweet days..

2005-12-05T20:05:00.000+08:00

Your Birth Month is January

You are a natural leader who is able to stand up when no one else can.Strong and powerful, you tend to overshadow those around you.
Your soul reflects: deep love, fascination with life, and a distinctive persona
Your gemstone: Garnet
Your flower: Snowdrop
Your colors: Black, dark red, and dark blue

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Your Birthdate: January 9

You are a born idealist, with more pet causes than you can count.You prefer be around others, both when working and while relaxing.Generous and giving, you believe you can change the world one person at a time.You're open minded and tolerant. People feel like they can tell you anything.
Your strength: Your go-with-the-flow flexibility
Your weakness: Your flair for the over dramatic
Your power color: Pine green
Your power symbol: Circle
Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

i am so so bored.. lalalax.. caught saw 2 today and was shocked by jeanette.. will not elaborate on it.. hahaz.. i want to watch aeonflux!!

i guess i am thinking of things ahead.. yup.. i should.. and maybe.. i will come to something soon.. hmmm...

training is taking up my holidays helping me to end my holiday real fast.. it's so bored.. no work.. everyday juz eat train or sleep.. nothing else.. tired tired.....

2005-11-26T21:25:00.000+08:00

had stiff neck for the past 2 days due to all the rolling on the ground.. sian..
have this big big ulcer that is irritating me.. so painful!! hope it will be alright soon..
will be having volleyball day camp next week.. sian diao! hope all the friendly matches will be alright!
sian sian sian.. life is soooooo boring!!

eileen!!! watch movie!!! u date me!=D

2005-11-22T16:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday was dear eileen's birthday.. had been in the same class as her ever since sec 1 and yes, though next year we would no longer be in the same class, i will still miss her.. miss her greatly! hmmm.. her crappiness.. her ks-ness.. her lameness.. her everything! yup.. finally she is 17.. when i will be 18 soon.. hahaz.. lalalax.. i dunno what to say lei.. hmmm.. hope that you had enjoyed your yesterday.. =D dun wanna xia suay u about what happened yesterday and why u cried cos of that dunno wat.. hahaz.. opps.. said sth le.. hahaz.. ppl will go ask u why u cry le! hahaz.. lalalax..

had trg for 5 hours yesterday.. damn tired.. and had to cycle!! hahaz.. stupid eileen dun wanna zai wo! bad girl!!

2005-11-11T18:36:00.000+08:00

Life now is so sian.. had to eat proper meals everyday.. haiz.. dun like! my eldest bro ordered mac today but i cant eat cos i have to be guai-er and pei my grandfather eat.. yup.. so when the order came, we smuggled the 'goods' into our room.. though i cant have mac meal, i ordered my favourite! Chocolate sundae! finally something that i like.. people!! please organise outings so that i will not be bored to death and need not force myself to eat!! sad sad sad.. soon i will get use to it le ba..

boring day~~

2005-11-05T12:28:00.000+08:00

played vb yest from 1 to 7pm.. fun! long time since i really played.. tiring but fun.. =D got to do pw on sunday..=X and my teacher suggested us to put in either a video or a skid! SKID!! -_-" my project is about covered stadium..

tired me!!
muscle ache...

2005-11-03T10:29:00.000+08:00

i am tired.
i am sian.
i am bored.
i am sick.

i do not agree but i didn't say out.
i wanted to leave but i did not.
i was so pissed off cos i find it a waste of time.
i see no reason in doing that.

maybe it was juz me, my mood.

2005-11-01T13:51:00.000+08:00

i don't know what the heck is happening.
I am sure there is something wrong going on.
my instinct won't be and can't be wrong.
yes eileen, this is the first time.
i didn't expect it.
if only i can say it out loud.
but,
i am loss for words.
i am lost.

to people who likes to irritate me, here's a warning:
i am not in the mood and will kill anyone that comes bother me.
maybe i am having pms ba.
so, yup,

leave me alone.

2005-11-01T10:06:00.000+08:00

i am at a loss.
i don't know what's going on inside me.
my scratches hurt.
my cough is killing me.
is it ending or it has already ended?
there is a hole.
a hole in my heart.

2005-10-29T20:09:00.000+08:00

so here's the latest news.. I GOT RETAINED.. so the next qns is poly or retain.. reason for retaining a B O F and advancing a E F F is cos my F is 20%.. hmmm.. nvm.. it's my fate and i got to accept it..

i am glad that i got so many friends that care A LOT for me.. and yup! thanx to all.. i m alright ya.. juz feel that i have disappoint my parents n brothers.. yup! i got so many ppl(very good frens) that care for me.. and among them there is this 2 very very good frens! 1 who cried upon hearing the news tat i might retain and the other we cried when she knew that i wun be in the same class as her next yr.. hmmm.. i saw her eyes--- red.. i cant help but broke into tears again.. Wonder if this fate of mine will destroy my close friendship with this 2 gal but i doubt so ba.. juz tat the trio pillow gang will change its name.. yup!

so i will be taking physics chem econs math next year..
A level chi on mon..
sian diao..
haiz..

2005-10-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

had fever on sunday for the WHOLE day.. dammit.. and so, i missed the chalet.. well nvm.. the folowing day woke up with a slight fever cum sore throat? den come today! sore throat.. heng i have strepsils.. i think i will need to depend on them for the next few days.. cannot eat chocolates for the next few days too.. i will be so sian cos i have nothing to eat..=X

pw is such a waste of time man..
why do we have to spend our time doing the stupid stuff??
arghh!!!

2005-10-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

i have gotten B 64/100 fro my math c,confirm a F for physics and a AO 39.7/100 for econs! so... haiz.. i am not happy for any of my subjects.. not at all.. an E8 for my GP!! wonderful!! haiz..

i am ok i think.. or at least.. i look ok..=X

eileen dun dare to talk to me!
cass dun dare to disturb me!
hahaz..

banner is almost completed le.. faster than i expect.. i hate the planning process.. so many things to do.. so sian..

poly or mjc?=X

dun ask me to cheer up? i am not as upset as u think but i am not as happy as i look.. yup! i am alright!

2005-10-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

went to watch a damn nice movie today! Goal!! muz watch! hmmm.. there's this grp of little boys whom eileen scare them off today! no one dare to sit beside her! lolx.. and they are VERY VERY VERY noisy!!! maybe today is a holiday for them.. so many kids around sia..

finally everything's over.. but a lot of planning work to do.. haiz.. so sian!!!

2005-10-10T18:04:00.000+08:00

i am not dying.. i m DEAD.. @_x

had physics paper today.. n guess wat? i spend my time staring at the paper! paper 1, 2 and 3.. on the whole, i onli noe how to do 3 qns? haiz.. study so much oso no use.. any jc kind enuff to accept me? haiz..
last paper tml.. =D

2005-10-06T12:25:00.000+08:00

ms e.tan wants me to blog!

ok..yesterday was my gp paper and my econs essay paper.. wat i can say is, both paper sucks! nvm..tml i have CLAO paper which most or maybe all of us are not going to study for it.. i would rather spend my time on math n physics..

so yesterday after our paper, leen cass nora and i went to CP for kfc..on the way they, me commented tat jt is differentiated good! *sorry cass* hahaz.. then nora said cass is ahhh.. homogeneous?? hahaz.. after which i commented again tat the homogeneous product as a +ifinity value! eileen explained that it means the good is price elastic.. which means it has a lot a lot a lot of substitutes!! hahaz.. cass not unique le!! so tat was the econs aftermath.. yup..

time to mug math!

2005-10-03T17:42:00.000+08:00

had been studying econs since 1130.. haiz.. read through 5 lect notes but am i absorbing anything? i dun like to study at home i really dun like.. haiz.. so bored so sian but finally, when the exam is 2 days away, i am sitting down in my room and study instead of spending my time on bed! i want and dun want promos to come! i m so sian.. kill me please... @_x x_@ @_x X_@ @_X x_@ -___-" "-___-

2005-09-30T23:27:00.000+08:00

i dunno what's the prob with myself.. haiz.. dun wan kenna retained but still not mugging hard.. haiz.. i am feeling so sian.. so bored.. so pissed off.. haiz..

hope everything will be over soon.. i hope..

2005-09-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

just got to know tat at least 7 of us were absent from school today and after recess, all gers were gone! tml die le..

2005-09-26T20:12:00.000+08:00

wat's the prob with me man? din go school today but end up, so far only managed to study 3 chapts of physics.. haiz... promos is just 8 days away but i m still not mugging hard.. not that i haven start studying, but i am still not studying to the best of my ability.. i studied real hard for mid years.. real hard.. but end up? the results sucks! now, as compared to mid years.. i am still not studying as hard.. how? haiz.. stress sia.. i wan to be promoted! i got to wake up.. wake up NOW!

got my compre back.. lucky me.. i got 26.5/50.. sort of save me from my 15/50 compo.. haiz.. wat if i fail my GP again for promos?? happy new year to me le..

what should one do if one is unsure?
juz leave it alone and let fate decides..

study!!! someone wake me please...

yingxian ah.. if u r reading this.. all the best for wed paper!! u can do it de la.. dun think about whether u had made a wrong choice anot.. i noe it's hard staying there urself and u really wants to come back! dun worry!! u can do it de!! the 5 months is yours!! jiayou!

2005-09-12T18:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR YINGXIAN!!!!=pPp

2005-09-12T18:16:00.000+08:00

now i realised that actually there are a lot of people staying up to study at night de.. was studying on friday night to sat morning at abt 7am.. then sat woke up at 3+ but lazed in bed till 4.30 when i am forced to wake up cos of a match.. hmmm.. at night again stayed up but was at hg green de mac studying with ming fern! hahaz.. din expect so many people to be there.. mostly from mjc n vjc de.. it's full house when we reached! yup.. gonna study physics.. haiz..

i got 15/50 for my gp essay! great huh.. =( haiz.. retain? sian!!!

2005-09-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. it's time to start mugging again.. hmmm.. hope tat this time round i wun be mugging for nothing again.. haiz.. getting promoted or not is making me so stressed up! haiz.. gonna clear all my work this week and start studying next week.. hope i can stop slacking!!

stress coming and thus,, i start eating again!! i eat a lot a lot lorz.. cant stand myself but.. nvm.. tat's me! bad thing is cca stand down le so i am going to grow fat fat fat!! nvm.. tat's me!

study study study!!
good luck to all the J2s!!

2005-09-09T00:29:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry for being so stubborn..
i juz dun like it..
yup..

2005-09-08T19:24:00.000+08:00

ok! today had econs tutorial.. but it becomes a art class for ms e.tan! and the drawing block is... MY LEFT HAND!! so it all begins with me being crap then crab.. lalalax.. so i m dying soon... all the toxic.. and to think that cass ong add on by drawing star on my right hand, followed by the stupid circle? ahhhh.. i m dying!!

den played vball.. k la.. nv really played.. i m so tired today.. hmmm..
i m sooooooo sooooooooo sooooooooo slack...!!!

i dunno when i mean what i say le.. hmmm.. lalalax...
maybe i mean it maybe i dun..=X

2005-09-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

i am so bored so bored so bored!!!
i am so sian so sian so sian!!!
i am dying of boredom dying of boredom dying of boredom!!!
i am confused am confused am confused!!
SIANNNnnnnnnNNNNNnnnNnnNNNnnNNNNZZZZZzzzzZZZZZzzZZZZZzzZZZZzzzz

2005-09-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

saw this auntie feeding cats at white sands!!! The cats are so big la!! so omg lorz!!! hmmm... heng this doesnt happen in hougang.. phew...

having match tml.. i heard that is play 3 matches lorz... hmmm... wish me luck.. i cant serve cant spike? hope that my hand will be alright tml...

i really dunno?
i dun understand??
whatever...

2005-08-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

ok! a longg day today!! started off the day badly..
i woke up at 6.55 today!!! jumped out of bed!! rushed and took a cab to school.. while waiting for the cab, there's this irritating guy who intended to jump queue! so there's this cab coming at the opp side n stopped asking us who wans to get on.. heng he ask me go first if not i m gg to curse n swear!
then went sch.. aces day.. lalalax.. my class.. =X
then came lect and then the celebrations and then lect again.. actually got 18/50 for physics = AO but in the end got 17/50 = F.. haiz.. li bu kai F de.. sian! my math test got 22/30 = 73.3% when i could have gotten 25/50 = 83.3%.. a diff of 10%!! nvm.. at least i passed..

Cass is upset.. i dunno why but cheer up kkz!! i miss u today! hahaz.. and thanx for scolding me asshole when i messaged u ah!! bigger asshole!

went to marina with the ah siao eileen n nora.. ate n laughed!! the green bean soup is damn nice la! drank 7 bowls! hahaz.. challenged with nora.. draw game.. the green bean soup is cooked by eileen de mother de shi xiong di jie mei! hahaz.. lalalax... oh ya! not to forget leen's shi quan da bu tang! hahaz..

gonna meet dennis, leen n nora tml at 8.30! wootz! heng is in hougang le.. hahaz...
got the stupid instructor course... sian big time! no one is gg? if i have a choice, i oso dun wan.. juz dun wan tat gay to look down on us!=D so sylvia,, dun wan go nvm..=p

2005-08-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

ok! my teacher had a 360 degrees change today! yup.. suddenly explained about why she is so strict blah blah blah... nvm.. ok! had trg today and once again, my arm got injured! ran 8 rounds today! did 100 crunches! 60 back extension! 120 leg raisers! 3x45secs of leaning against the wall.. wootz! i m gg to die!! soon...

lalalax...

2005-08-28T05:29:00.000+08:00

stupid EOM!!! no more articles for me to find le la.. Eileen!! save me!!!

learnt a big big lesson today!! hmmm... not to disturb ppl too much.. yup..=X

went out with da jie n syl today!! to changi airport.. to study.. do math.. till puke blood..=X argh...

xia suay-ed!
all ur fault!!

2005-08-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

ok! a short structured essay today!

firstly, today, the mad pig flared up again! early in the morning, ms lai came n caught jwen's pants again..but at first she was alright? who noes? idiotic idiot went to call his parents.. so.. nvm.. it's just the beginning..
how come she can be very friendly in one min and the next she behaves like a mad cow which kenna the mad cow disease? sorry.. i din mean to be rude but... it's the fact..

the second part of the structured essay.. hmmm... pw begins.. and the disease worsen.. she came into class and made us greet her twice! nvm bout that.. then she startied to ask us must respect authority etc.. all craps n rubbish.. ok! so as usual, when the disease starts working, she will find the poor jwen.. and this time round, she pisses jwen till the word fuck came out.. she molested him! gosh!! xing ling chuang shang!! i think he will have nightmaressSSSSss! ok.. so pisses him till the fuck word came out of his mouth again and this time round she heard him and screamed! her scream made our hands turn cold sia! she scream till my senior who happens to be at block E msg me and ask! so i told her she suck and she replied me with, 'we noe she sucks'.. so damn it! so she demanded an apology letter.. poor her.. she wants to have the letter so desperately that jwen has to write wat she says! so me leen n cass waited for jwen outside and thus, we kenna shouted by her.. but who cares?! ok.. so we went for math lect and we ask for counselling.. hahaz.. so after math lect, we stayed in lt4 n complained everything to our dear math teacher! we complained for an hour and thus, came to a conclusion that we shall visit the vp.. too bad he's not in so i guess we r gg to lodge a complain tml!

thirdly, i dun understand and dunno that why i have the feeling that tat pig is afraid of me!
during the meet-the-parents session, she dun dare to cpmplain to my mother.. den she nv shout at me b4.. nv ever.. and today, she said hi to me.. she said it rather softly, therefore i think that she is afraid that i wun reply her.. but too bad,, though i HATE her A LOT, i replied with a soft one too!

lastly, why am i so fortunate to have her as my CT?? why is my EOM rejected again? why is it tat a gov website is oso not allowed? damn.. she really SUCKS like hell.. raymond suggested that we buy one BIG BIG CLOCK and order bai ju hua for her on teachers' day.. hahaz.. even jirong also commented today.. this shows how idiotic, unreasonable, irritating .....*the list goes on* she is.. argh!!!

ok.. enuff of that pig.. had trg today and i love today's trg.. i dunno why but i juz do.. though i played extremely badly today but i still enjoy today's trg!! maybe is cos i do not have to lead the team? dunno dunno.. nvm.. i m tired and i m sure i will have leg cramp tonight.. =X

2005-08-24T20:43:00.000+08:00

went for the student instructor award course today.. I DUN LIKE THE PRACTICALS!! it's so boring lorz.. i dun like tat coach.. hmmm... still got another session and u noe wat? it's on next wed which was supposed to be a holiday for me!! argh!! sian big time.. nvm.. i want to watch THE MAID!! haiz.. too bad no one wants to watch.. anyone wants to watch the movie oso? please jio me! =D

so much work need to be done! alamak.. i m soooOOOOoooo slack... =X

never the same again?

2005-08-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

finally finish the stupid EOM which i had to re-do.. why cant she tell me that the article was not suitable when i handed in the first draft? damn her man.. first, she lost my EOM and ask me re-do it and hand it in the next day.. Next she rejected my EOM on 19th aug when i am supposed to hand it on the 20th aug.. can i chop her into pieces and throw it into the sea?? dun think that i wan to dirty my hand and pollute the sea.. i m a considerate and clever girl..=D

so now comes the I&R and WR.. i HATE PW!! damn it.. i hate projects!! that explains why i chose to go to a JC instead of poly..

have tons of work to complete and 3 tests next week..
can anyone save me?
argh!!
if only she will stop irritating me with the pw stuffs!!=X
fat hope man..

2005-08-18T21:17:00.000+08:00

By popular demand, i sure put aside my EOM and start on my essay..

First of all, why is there the existence of such teacher?
she is so damn irresponsible. WTH! she thinks that she act fierce i will be afraid of her? no way man! wait long long oso dun have! Fuck her lorz.. damn it.. on monday she says,"oh.. i receive ur eom le.." today she says,"no i din receive it. Hand it in tml." WTF!! juz tell me that u lost my eom n therefore i need to re-do.. i will forgive u de.. but! it's not that i din hand in lorz.. and for your info, if u thinks tat doing EOM is easy n can finish in a short period of time, why not u do it urself? f*** you!

Secondly, why is there such gong si bu fen de teacher?
i dun care what happen to her sia.. she not happy, not in good mood oso not my business.. why must she vent it on the students? not happy take leave take mc la.. come school for wat?! U R NOT NEEDED!! kao.. slam the file on the table.. please pay 90 cents to wee hian for damaging his file... do u think that u act fierce, slam file, i jiu will be scared? sorry to disappoint u sia.. no one in our class will.. if only, u turn violent.. then i can say byebye to u!

Thirdly, where do i have such a busybody, irritating, brainless teacher?
she enjoys going around to ask ppl to pull up pants! (hor jwen?).. u noe what? the school management says that the string of our blouse should be at ur first hip bone.. u noe what she ask us do? our fold should be at our waist!! WTH!!! cant she just use her brain n think? oh! forgot that she maybe doesn''t have one.. she can come all the way to the canteen to check our attire.. and till now, why didn't she realise how much we hate her n how we wish that she can get lost.. she is so insensitive too!

however, does she possess any good point?
sad to say.. NO!! so this is going to be a one-sided essay.. i m bias!

In conclusion, she suck like hell and is the worst teacher i have ever met.. she is so ever irritating, disgusting, horrible, idiotic etc... she makes me lose my respect for her.. for your info, no matter how much i detest a person, i will give that person her due respect.. for this time round, sad to say, NO!! never! she makes me doubt on my decision of becoming a teacher.. can i sue her for this?
The responsibility that a teacher should have.. The amount of respect a teacher should received.. The characteristics of an acceptable teacher.. SHE DOESN'T HAVE ANY OF THAT!

My wish n my hope for the rest of my J1 life?
Firstly, to get to see her less.. which means.. hope she can disppear and quit and hopefully, get OUT OF MY SIGHT asap!

Secondly, to get her to change for the better, in terms of EVERYTHING!

I have never ever hate someone more than how i hate her!
eileen: bu yao gan le la!

2005-08-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

why do i have this kind of CT?? spoils my life in mjc.. she SUX to the CORE!! keep looking at people's butt? omg! poor j.wen.. she should just F*** off!

my ankle is kind of weird again.. hope it will heal soon.. haiz..

physics test... DIE..
econs test... DIE..

qiling?? oso die!
lol..

2005-08-09T20:03:00.000+08:00

was in LT4 yesterday to watch the National Day celebration.. jun wen was singing solo ah!! (eileen dun be sad..=p)
my frens all immediately sit up straight sia.. bth.. hahaz.. after that jiu went to the vball meeting.. a meeting which i looked forward to.. hope things will change for the better.. i hope.. hmmm... then went Sentosa.. though this farewell doesn't look like one, i think i had fun talking with those who came ba.. only 3 guys and 3 girls seniors came for the farewell.. hmmm.. will try to organise one more for the seniors.. a better one i hope..=X
joined leen cass n nora at marina de gv.. chiong-ed like siao.. hahaz.. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.. NICE.. but cass n nora dun think so.. supposed to go for steamboat after the movie but they were full.. so instead, we went to carrefour to buy food! hahaz.. suntec de carrefour is not as good compared to ps de.. so we shared ice-cream outside suntec before gg to esplanade to enjoy our food! hahaz.. was rather surprised by the crowd there..
after that jiu go marina see fireworks.. omg!! i think it's damn nice! so beautiful!!!!
reached home at about 2am.. tired tired.. slept all the way to 1.30pm today when i was supposed to meet ming fern at 1? hahaz.. heng she oso sleep till 1.30.. if not bcos of her msg, i think i can sleep till 2+.. went out study and at last, i did work..
still got lots to do.. EOM n I&R.. haiz..

Happy National Day!!!

2005-08-03T19:34:00.000+08:00

lalalax.. i m making eileen mad!! hahaz..

the IMPATIENT and BAD-TEMPERED qiling

2005-08-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

school has been busy.. hmmm.. another new week is here.. moving house tomorrow but none of my things are packed? i sure move during the weekend and not tomorrow..moving house=less sleep for me! got to leave house at 6 next time.. lalalax..=X

had training today.. being the captain makes me realise how impatient n bad-tempered i can be.. haiz.. if u r not happy with me telling u ur mistakes when ms yeow is not around, fine! just let me know.. i dun wan to tell u about ur mistakes!! if i can take the trouble to keep reminding u bout your mistakes, y cant u juz take it? dun believe then sua.. please dun question me if u are not gg to accept it no matter how i explain.. i m so sick of it!! i want the team to be bonded but it cant be achieved if the team doesnt wans to work towards that goal.. i m impatient.. and soon,, i will just explode.. to be able to achieve our common goal which is to make a name for ourselves is rather impossible.. but we must try b4 making any conclusion! however, this goal is getting further.. if nobody bothers to correct their mistakes, if nobody bothers to try bond the team, if everyone only bothers to perform in front of ms yeow, please... we can slack now n stop training hard cos we ARE NOT and will NEVER achieve our goal next year.. maybe my expectation of the team is too high.. maybe it's because i grew in a team which has A LOT of discipline.. discipline as in concentrating during trg, maybe it's because i grew in a team which is VERY bonded.. this makes me feel even MORE disappointed.. haiz.. being serious in training is NOT difficult! being serious doesnt mean not joking during trg but rather, when in court, we should just concentrate in the game? looking at cute kids around doesn't and will not improve ur skills.. haiz.. please.. give me a break.. i m looking forward to friday's training.. and it's friday's training only..haiz..

2005-07-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

my ankle spoil le! dunno wat happen to it.. haiz.. left ankle.. i did not sprain it but somehow, it just hurts.. muz be cause of that night.. hmmm.. it's an on and off pain.. argh.. i would rather sprain it then not knowing wat is the prob..

met up with dennis at cp today.. eeee...vvvvvv...eeeee... ...... ..... hahaz.. DENNIS!! i very good.. din spell it out! lalalalax...

tired tired... soooOOOoooOoo muchhHhhhhhHhh workkKKKkkkKk..

2005-07-24T16:33:00.000+08:00

had college day yesterday morning.. the hall was so cold that i actually shivered.. the student of the year tan yan ru.. she will be my role model.. hmmm.. though life in JC is so hectic, she can not onli excel in her CCA---sailing but also, excelled in her studies!! maybe i shouldn't complain about not having enough time for things to ne done but rather, try to manage my time well.. a day will also be 24 hours.. if i do not have enough time, then i can only blame it on my poor time management.. =X
2 months more to the promotional exam.. haiz.. got to buck up!!

went to changi airport to study yesterday.. went there with eileen, nora and cass.. eileen went there by herself while the 3 of us went together after eating at jack's place.. so the 3 of us slept in the bus!! hahaz.. i really slept.. i must be very very tired..=X

actually i need to go training at KA yesterday de.. but din go cos of the math test and the in-class close book essay on tues.. and for today, need to go celebrate ivy jie jie's bday but din go again.. sorry ah ming fern..=X

i still have tonnes to work and i still need to study for the trigo math test tml... why am i still here??=X

RED n WHITE

2005-07-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

had the work plan seminar on sat.. after which, went home sleep for half an hour then jiu go boon keng for vb training.. it had been long since i last played a game.. it was fun.. =D miss those times that we played as a tem.. but we sall play as a team again.. W.E rawks!=D

after training, we went to eat.. and,, the story begins....
we wanted to walk to boon keng.. so we anyhow walk.. then walk till blur le so we asked a taxi driver for direction.. at this time, while yi an was asking for direction, i turned and saw this lady in red.. she smiled n i thought she was juz being friendly so i smiled back.. after asking, we continued with our search for boon keng mrt station.. after a while, i turned around and saw this lady in red again! and guess how she smiled?? she smiled with her mouth xie to one side de lorz.. scary!!! omg.. i was so scared that i quickly pulled yan ling to ask if she can see her anot.. omg.. after which,, the 5 of us were all alert.. then we started to walk slowly and that lady realised that we noe that she was following us.. so she started to walk abit faster but it was obvious that she was waiting for us to catch up with her.. she turn to her left but suddenly walk out again.. we were all so scared *especially me* then we quickly hide to one side.. finally she crossed the road but i was still so scared.. so much so that i dun even dare to sleep alone in my room yesterday and had to ask my mother to pei me..=X

so today woke up at 11am then pei my mother to IKEA to buy the rod for the curtain.. finally i get to see my new house at toa payoh today!! the house is sooooooooOOOooo SMALL!! my room is still ok but my brother's room, living room n even thetoilet is small.. so omg lorz.. nvm.. so after that came back home and my mother want to buy 4-D so i ask her to buy that scratch n win thingy for me to play.. and i won $10!! hahaz.. after that went home but... the story begins again......

while we were walking back, there is this stupid white cat that follow me!! ok.. i should say us.. then i realise n i quickly siam to the other side.. but my mother told me that the cat was following me!! omg.. of all people y me???? so i ran out and that cat folowed.. gosh! i tried to stare at it with a fierce look and it really works.. but it will run towards me soon.. so i wanted to run towards my mother who did not attempt to save me!!!! she was wondering why tat cat wants to follow me and why is the cat so fierce.. never see before de.. so nvm.. i wanted to run but i fell!!!! the cat saw and quickly hide in the bush.. *maybe cats is afraid of ppl who falls* argh!! so my toe, my knee are all injured.. damn.. my knee bleed for 10 minutes lorz!! it's painful!! and my mother kept laughing at me!! argh!! but she is afraid that the cat will follow her when she goes to the market.. so hope that the stupid cat will disappear! now my knee not only have blue blacks but oso a big wound..*i think that the wound is big la* argh!!!

so that explains why i hate red and white! argh!! ok.. haven touch my homework yet.. die.. i am so tired.. weekend ruin by that 2 colours.. gonna rush that stupid gp outline for kevin.. argh.. oh ya!! i kenna the GP remedial.. haiz.. need to see him for extra 45 minutes on thurs..=X

2005-07-14T20:35:00.000+08:00

sick today.. din go school.. wasted my day doing EOM onli..
will be having the student leaders investiture tml at 5.. which means i will skip half of the vb trg.. should be gg trg at abt 630 after which might go xms for trg till dunno wat time.. lalalax.. had to repoet to sch at 830am on sat for the work plan seminar.. SIANZ!!
i feel that i do not have enuff time.. but i m still so slack!!
a summary of my results:

econs: AO 37%
physics: F 17/110
math c: AO 31/80
GP: F 34.5%
CLAO: C5 58.5%

CLAO seems to be my best subject though i din study for it?? haiz.. i m please with my econs.. =D

2005-07-10T18:41:00.000+08:00

went out with dennis n eileen yesterday to shop.. after which alex joined us.. hmmm.. supposed to go sentosa but i din go due to muscle ache.. supposed to meet with other 4e4 classmate but in the end i oso din go? alamak.. next time ba..

slept from 2am to 1pm.. din noe that it was already so late.. if i din check the time, i guess i would have slept longer.. lots of homework still undone.. haiz.. i m so slack..

had trainings on wed n fri.. wah.. i m so dead.. wed training was hiong.. had serious, severe, jialat de muscle ache.. i cant even walk properly.. this results in a poor attendence on fri.. onli 7 of us attended trg.. luckily there was no pt on that day cos we had training till 8.30pm..

got back my physics full paper de result on fri.. got 17 out of 110.. haiz.. jue wang le la.. mei xi wang le.. this stupid result make me started playing vball since 3pm? all the way till 8.30.. vball can allow one to fa xie..=X

got to mug even harder for the promos le.. haiz.. i m dead.. expected that F for my physics but i NEVER expect such a result.. haiz.. nvm.. wat's done cannot be undone.. hope that my math result wun disappoint me.. haiz.. will know math result tml.. *pray* haiz...

it's homework time.. i hate school..

my horrible results...

2005-07-05T18:41:00.000+08:00

jue wang le.. haiz..

econs mcq: 15/30 (at least a D but rather disappointed)
physics mcq: 6/30 (i spent a week n did all the new mcqs! wat a waste of my time!)
gp compre: 14.5/50 (fail again.. haiz.. ritchie! i m dead..)
chinese paper 2:47/100 (first time in my life i failed chinese.. but i din study so.. not veri sad bout it..)

one day so much da ji.. haiz.. next yr can either find me in srjc (if they r willing to accept me) or a poly le.. study or not doesn't seems to make much of a difference to me.. haiz.. jue wang.. shi wang.. mei xi wang..

tml will be measuring ht n wt.. die die die...

2005-07-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

dunno wat's wrong with my com.. all the internet services except for msn are all not working properly.. i went out with xms peep today n we talked about our team! hahaz.. gonna have trainings n play competition together again! feeling rather excited le..=D

today is dear gidman de bday! happy birthday ah!(dunno whether u will read this) yup! all the best to u!!=p

2005-07-03T08:51:00.000+08:00

it had been a long long time since i last slept till so shiok! guess wat? i slept from yesterday 4pm all they way till this morning 7.45am.. hahaz. 15 n 3/4 hours!
went to school to play vb with sly, val, ruiqi, xinyi n yinhong.. after that went for a jog round the school with sly cos the track is closed.. tiring tiring.. maybe tat explains why i slept for so long.. hahaz..
my homework is still undone!!! should i do?? haiz.. ajc n srjc de chinese paper.. got one compo.. sian^infinity..

shall rot at home today??=X